July 14

How to Bring Order to Your Ideas

“I begin with an idea, and then it becomes something else.” Pablo Picasso

I have no shortage of ideas, but I’m long on procrastination. It’s not purposeful or outright lazy. I’ve become disorganized and can’t seem to make order out of all my pursuits or interests. My mind is more cluttered than my office desk and I have yet to find a solution.

Until Wednesday, when I finally had enough and called someone in to help.

Once I got past the shame, I realized it felt good to confess. I can’t do this on my own. There was a long stretch of time where I tried to force myself to do all of the things I used to be able to do without effort. Like any unresolved problem, it just kept building.

I could not get past the piles of webinar notes, phone numbers, email addresses and random post ideas that were strewn across my desk. The desk is about the size of a school cafeteria table so trust me when I say, it was a lot of clutter. I’d get it sorted into neat little piles or folders, but they still had to be dealt with.

This inability to catch up has been a daily dose of discontent and frustration for a long time, a reminder of all the chaos that came in, and took over.

In three short hours, Jamie was able to help me see that it was not the life and death situation I made it out to be. She sat with me while I whined and complained and over-explained, simultaneously snapping pictures of all my notes, uploading them to Evernote and calming me with sentences like, “It’s okay. I’ve seen worse. I do this all the time. I get it.” In one afternoon, I was finally able to see a peek of my sanity again.

Where do you file a note like, squirrel story, scribbled in blue ink?

Tears fell and stained last month’s calendar when I found and read Nicole Nordeman’s prayer from last year’s Belong Tour.

For too long I agonized over what to do with my fortunes.

Your co-workers take pleasure

in your great sense of creativity.

Lucky numbers 52,23,36,33,16,20 

Then, of course, I was sidetracked thinking how long it had been since I’d had Kung Pao Chicken and I’d really like to have some Kung Pao Chicken…and Focus.

After she left, I had the determination to get through two other folders and a box of papers and instructional books that had been hiding under my desk for almost a year and a half. I’m almost done.

It’s bizarre how less stressed I feel.

I’m starting to think maybe I can get through this as the Oak Hills car sticker promises.

Maybe running away to Mexico is not my best thought out plan right now even though my daughter just got me a passport charm for my James Avery bracelet. I told the clerk at the store, “I threaten to run away to Mexico a lot. This is her way of saying, ‘Do it. You won’t.'”

She laughed while I wondered if I really could drive from here to Tulum.

Maybe stopping and fleeing to another country is only the best plan I can come up with when I am frustrated with myself and can’t seem to make much progress. Maybe that is only best idea because I can’t seem to create the life I want right now. How do you bring order to your ideas? Hire someone to help.

To encourage.

To give you that swing push you need to go just a little bit longer and a little bit further.

I’m beginning with a few fresh notebooks and some new ideas, hoping I can make it something else.

 

 

 

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Posted July 14, 2017 by tinamolliefisher@gmail.com in category "Uncategorized

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